MDMA (Ecstasy) I need some insight on this...?

So during my senior year in high school i dropped E with a couple of buddies and i had a profound experience! The night was great but the following days i felt like i was completely in control of every part of my mind at school. I felt super positive and things that used to seem like mountains were little beans. I felt like something that was clogging my flow was drained out and i was just more fluent with the current of life. I approached people a lot more openly and was down for pretty much whatever met my face. A few months went by and some other stuff clogged my flow again (relationships, problems, and so on) & ever since it's been killing me to try E again. Is this feeling of Enlightenment after using E purely chemical? Is it not a good idea to take it again to open the floodgates of my life once again? Or is this purely the chemical begging for another rush?? please give me your two cents:) cheers